Copyright Bonnie Stanard
This is a Seth Thoms clock that Doug and I bought at a flea market in Illinois not long after we married. Doug likes clocks. I don't like to be reminded of the time.
Photo taken at Fort Fremont, St. Helena Island, SC.
Grandma kept laying hens in a tin-covered house
and bought feed from a man
who made deliveries in a pickup truck.
He stacked in the shed sacks
of cracked corn and mixed feed in calicos and prints.
In a closet of her house, Grandma collected
the cleaned bags.There was hardly a dress
on the place but of feed sacks.
If threads showed in our clothes, we dug
through the designs to find duplicates enough
to cut out pattern pieces and sew an outfit.
When, in the affluence of time, we discovered
Sears Roebuck catalogue,
cotton cloth by the yard came with the mail.
Thanks to Silver Boomer Books which originally published this poem.
The darkness we can conceive
goes beyond the benefit of words.
Hell shrinks that darkness to thinkable
but the unspeakable remains.
It’s intoxicating what passion we feel
beyond this corset of alphabet curses.
Wrath is far reaching
but can’t go far enough.
Why is tragedy so weak
and love so adulterated?
Will we ever find a word
that gives eternity its due?
At our birth a native tongue
gives us avenues to thought
but ties us to those avenues
and we try to live what’s said.
We try to be what is understood
as happy, logical, tolerant, lonely…
In the ground below the bore of everyday voices
especially near the true you,
there glimmers hardly a voice at all.
Utterances of rocks, lakes, and trees.
Thanks to Slant, A Journal of Poetry, which first published this poem.
My thanks to White Ash Literary Magazine, which originally published this poem.
There is a room in the television
where I sometimes live.
If you cast about cables
you can connect to great dates,
shameless politicians, first rate athletes,
trashy relatives, swindlers and pickpockets.
Sometimes commercials get in your eyes
and shed doubt about whatever happens
and how much it costs
but I’ve learned to turn my tuner to mute.
People come together whatever the weather
and argue or agonize, gossip or confess.
Some channels introduce a truth
owned by only one person.
Warnings are everywhere
and advice about the latest outbreak
of poisoned food, bad medicine, breakdowns,
and extreme killers in another school
where a camera pans too close to a nose
and catches a right hook.
On any ordinary day visitors
drop in by the scores,
lovers, soldiers, cronies, comedians,
and dangerous strangers.
With the touch of my finger I can witness
fist fights, shootouts, car chases, double-crosses,
torture, and steamy sex
and even now a smoking airplane is flying
close to my roof top.
Words are submissive but unfaithful,
fickle to their roots and inconstant.
Even if you believe them,
they act in bad faith
double-cross your best efforts and desert you.
As often as you use them they abuse you.
Believe me, they mess
with your meaning.
Thanks to The Griffin which originally published this poem.
This is a photo of Fairview School (SC), which ceased to exist after it was consolidated into Pelion School in the 1950s. My grandfather, Henry Shumpert, donated the land on which the school was built. My grandmother (of "Feed Sacks") was the wife of Henry Shumpert.